Early Sunday morning and you are with your room mates. All laughing and enjoying the holiday mood and you are lost in your own thoughts. Wanna be alone! The only thought that crosses your mind...Amidst friends and yet all alone.
Why can't I love the crowd feeling...its always being alone that I crave from within..my own room...all alone..with my own thoughts...what a blissful life that would be !
People ask who is your best friend and I say it's my husband..the only person who understands me...in 27 years of my life..i have never been able to make anyone close to me except one....my hubby...for others there is always an invisible barrier which they just cannot cross...i really hve this feeling that I dont u need anyone...i can manage alone..on my own...its said " The best team is you and yourself then no one can hurt you ever" But still I get hurt within...

A tale of 2 girls

A tale of two girls!

"I wanna get married" cried Bindu. It was her 29th birthday today and she just couldn't believe that she is celebrating that with her relationship status as 'single'. She has always planned each and everything in her life and it has always worked out that way except marraige. She had planned to get married by 26 and now she is 29!!

Meet Bindu... Anext door girl who has everything in her life. A great government job, Good looks, good height and confidence soaring through the air.

She had a comfortable and happy childhood too. Dad in a high post in govt bank and mom also a banker. A really big house to live in a posh locality . What more could a girl ask for! But Bindu wasn't happy. Her Mr.Right was taking too much time. Where is he?

Bindu's relationship status has not been always single. She has had her share of failed relationships where all guys just broke up with her saying she is too complicated and emotional to handle. Well the guys just weren't her Mr.Right.

Now it's her 29th birthday. Her parents are here to celebrate and even her friends have come. They have arranged a small party for her. All are in celebration mood and in their best dresses.

That's when Bindu entered the hall and cried 'I wanna get married'. Complete silence follows. All are looking at her. Bindu realises what she blurted out and sheepishly grins. The hall burst out in laughter! 

You can do it too!

"Come on girl...make it on your own...be your own boss..take risk now..this is the right time..." words echo in my ears...yes they are right...I should fulfil my dream now. Two years i can test myself. I should leave my highly coveted govt job! A secured job ..pension job.
Every day I make myself ready to take risk ...make it on my own but end up getting confused..and at such times u always irritate the one who is closest to u...try to justify ur insecurity. Tell them that they are putting too much pressure on u and that they are not understanding your disposition.
All excuses to run away from the reality. And u know that too!
All said and done...everyone has patience or what u say a threshold limit. They will support u only if they know that ur serious about it..after a while even they may give up on u...so in the end u have to do it.Make a plan...get serious...take risk...start doing it..and ur mantra should be " I will persist until I succeed"

And u get an sms!
"Congratulations ...ur promoted and posted to ahmedabad zone! Partyyyy..."
You are stunned and speechless...It's midnight and ur first anniversary celebration...we are sitting with cake in hand all happy and excited and this news comes!! Mixed feelings..mixed emotions...should I be happy or sad?!
My husband just kept looking at me all stunned...And out of the blue...I started crying!! Why God ? I couldn't even enjoy my promotion...why not Mumbai ...couldn't u have done some miracle and made me stay with my family...ahmedabad is just so far far away!!
Slowly my husband came into senses and held my hand and said "Congratulations dear ..I am so proud of u ...u have done it :) so what if it's ahmedabad..we will make it work! "

It's Wednesday!!
Getting up on a Wednesday morning is a great task...it's the middle of the week...two days over and two days more to go for weekend...But let's think it as the cup is half full ( being positive u see ;) )!! Just two days more!!!
In Gujarat. .people are more relaxed and easy going...there is no hurry-burry like aamchi Mumbai...it's 10 in the morning and I am sitting in the BRTC bus stop waiting for my bus...and there is no tension or restlessness of reaching office late...in Mumbai every second every minute counted...if ur even one minute late the train leaves and u reach office half n hour late!
But in Gujarat ...there is less stress...u get to sit in the bus even during peak hours...as a Mumbai bred girl that's like wow!!!
A relaxed stress free life...almost makes u lazy! (almost with a hope that i won't turn into one)
Got my bus...catch u later guys...have a wonderul day ahead and keep smiling :)

Sitting in a bus and wondering whether what ur doing is right! Was promotion so important that you are ready to live a long distance relationship life. Two states after marraige!!
I got married in Dec 2014 in a typical traditional indian style. Boy from keralamatrimony.com and girl all ready to don the indian bahu avatar.. little did i know that arranged marraige is actually awesome..the knowing of each other phase, horrible eating habits and my burnt rotis just make the relationship more stronger and closer...Thankful to my parents and to all the shaadi.com portals for making me meet my Prince charming in real life...best friends!!
All was going too perfectly for a year of marraige ..but as the clock struck 12 (midnight) on 24th December 2015 (anniversary date) ...I got a sms from a friend...